Summer Heat

My spring semester was finally over about three weeks ago. Luckily this semester I made all A's, but it still didn't raised my GPA that much. Hopefully, next semester it'll increase more. My three weeks of summer break passed by so quick that I wish it was still summer. Next week, I am going to summer school. UGH!! I'm taking four classes in the summer. It's going to be hard, but I need to speed up or else I won't graduate in time. All of my classes are morning classes, which means I have to wake up early. My summer school won't end until August 15!! By then, I'll have about two weeks until fall semester starts. School, school, and school!!! When will I ever finish with school??? School is taking up all my time and energy!! I wish I was already done, and making money now. :(

Anyways, my dad has finally left to Vietnam. It's been about two weeks. I think that throughout my childhood years, my dad has constantly been flying here and there that I have been used to him leaving for so long. I really want to fly back to Vietnam this Christmas, and maybe drop by Hong Kong and China, but who knows?? If only I have money, then I wouldn't have so many problems like now. Do you believe money that can solve all problems? I do. Right now, I believe that with money it can give my family and myself the lives we want. It's not like we are poor or anything, but we can't afford everything from its original price. It's the feeling of envy and knowing that there is an empty hole in your life. Maybe it's me. When I see people my age or younger than me with all these luxuries and amenities, I envied them. I wished that I was like them. I wished that I could afford money to buy bird's nest and drive nice cars and upgrade my house, but life is unfair.

My niece, Christine has a friend named Rachel and recently my niece was invited to come over to Rachel's house to play. To be nice, my sister asked if Rachel wanted to come over to Christine's house the next day and they can go to Chuck E. Cheese. At first, her mom said yes, but later that night Rachel's mom called my sister and told my sister that Rachel doesn't want to go. Then the next day when my sister went to pick up my nieces from school, Rachel asked her dad if she can come over Christine's house. Her dad also OK, and my sister agreed to come after 6:30 to pick up Rachel. When my sister came by, her grandmother said that Rachel can't go with my nieces today because she is sick. Oddly enough, there was one of Rachel and Christine's friend playing at Rachel's house at that time. I just don't understand why they would agreed to let Rachel go, but make all these reasons that she can't go and play when she was at home playing with another friend? They didn't even call my sister and tell her that Rachel couldn't come. My sister found out when they rang the bell. I mean that is just not cool. My niece was waiting all day to play with her friend, but was turned down on the last minute. It just seems as if they were criticizing how middle class status we are, and how we can't have upgrades like their house. Rachel's family is rich, and maybe that is why they don't want to interact with us much. Either way, it's just wrong.

On my last blog, I stated how I had a little crush on this guy who lives down the street from my house. I found out his name and I found out that he has a bachelor's degree in economics. It turns out that he is Rachel's mom's cousin, and not related as siblings like I thought. I'm still thinking that he is about 25 -26 years old, which is just a few years older than me. One time I saw him in garage, and yesterday when I came over to pick up my niece from her friend's house, I knew he was home. Although he was home when I came, I think he was getting ready to leave because by the time I left, he was already gone. Although I find him cute and attractive, I just don't think that we are compatible in any way. I never talked to him before, but from the actions of his family I can't seem to agree on it. Not only that, I find myself not fit for him and his upgraded family. I told you his family is rich. They all drives BMW and Mercedes. Especially what his family did to niece's moment of hanging out with her friend makes me wonder if they look down on people like my family. I am not rich, and I don't think this will ever be a good start.

I guess when the time comes, it will come right. Is it always this hard to find someone to hold your hands and listen to your troubles when you don't know what to do? Is it that hard to find a person that knows how to make to laugh in any day? I think that everyone has their own list of criteria when it comes to selecting a boyfriend or girlfriend, but we all know that this list will probably shrink in half because no one is perfect. It's not about finding the perfect one. It's about changing oneself to be your lover's perfect one, right? Maybe through all these troubles, I can find me someone! :) Best of luck for everyone too!!